.

Walking out of that hospital without her — leaving her physical body behind — felt impossible.Every instinct screamed that she was still there waiting for us, that somehow, if we turned around, she would still be smiling, still calling our names.

After her soul left her body, we stayed beside her.
We lay next to her as her small frame began to change, still warm, still our baby.

We stayed through every minute we were allowed, holding her until the moment she had to be prepared — just to keep her close a little longer.

It was the last thing we could give her — our presence, our love, our hands refusing to let go.

Sasha had told us to fight — with everything we had, with every tool, every ounce of hope, every breath.

And we did.

We fought like warriors because that’s what she asked of us.

Chemotherapy.
New immunotherapy.
Integrative medicine.
Every option, every trial, every treatment that promised even a sliver of time — we took it.

But within days, her tumors grew.
We shifted course again — to a new targeted immunotherapy, and two new chemotherapies.

We held our breath, praying this time would be different.

But within a week, new scans came back — and the words that followed shattered us.

More tumors.
On her liver.
On her kidneys.
On her pancreas.
And her lymphatic system — spreading, wrapping tightly around her lungs, slowly squeezing them closed.

We watched the numbers on the monitor rise, her CO₂ climbing higher each day as her lungs struggled to keep up.
And then, something miraculous happened.

Her body, her brain — the same one that had endured so much pain — began to protect her.

As her CO₂ rose, her brain gently carried her away from the agony, away from the fear.

It shielded her from pain.

For the last week of her life, our girl felt none of it.

She came off almost all pain medications, resting peacefully, breathing softly.

And of all the ways we could have lost her, this — this gentle fading — was a mercy we didn’t know to hope for.

After all the nights of screams and tears and helplessness, we were blessed with a passing that was peaceful.

A release.

A soft goodbye after so many days of excruciating pain.

and will always be — a miracle wrapped in fragility.

Her body was delicate, but her spirit… her spirit could move mountains.
She smiled through pain.
She laughed through exhaustion.

She comforted us when we should have been comforting her.
There was something eternal in her — something too radiant for this earth.

Our children — all of them who walk this road — are the fiercest warriors the world will ever know.

They carry strength that adults can’t even begin to comprehend.

They endure what should break them, and somehow, they shine brighter through the cracks.
Sasha taught us that the soul’s strength knows no limit — that love can exist even in suffering, that courage can live in the smallest body.

But oh, how it hurts to live in a world without her.
There are no words to describe the sound of her absence.

The house feels too quiet, too hollow.

Her laughter still echoes in corners, her voice lingers in the air like music we can’t quite turn off.

We keep expecting to hear her call from the hallway, to see her peek around the corner with that mischievous grin.
Instead, there is silence — and an ache that fills every inch of space she once occupied.

And yet, even through this unbearable grief, a new fire burns inside us.
Because watching what Sasha endured — the treatments, the side effects, the limitations of therapies created in the 1950s — makes us realize something bigger.

It makes us angry.
It makes us ache for change.
Our children deserve better.

They deserve modern, targeted, compassionate medicine — not recycled protocols older than their grandparents.
If Sasha’s story can light even the smallest spark for progress, then her light will never go out.

Oh, my baby girl…
How do I keep breathing without you?
The clock no longer keeps time; it only measures the distance between us.

Every minute feels like a mile, every hour another reminder that you’re not here.I will count them all — every second — until the moment I see you again.
Until I can hold you tight — and then tighter — just like you asked me to.

You were love, in its purest form.
You were grace, strength, and laughter all wrapped into one small, shining soul.

And though your body is gone, your light — your beautiful, unstoppable light — will keep burning in every life you’ve touched.

Rest easy, my brave girl.
You fought harder than anyone should ever have to.
And now, you are free.

Until we meet again, Sasha.
We’ll keep fighting for you.
We’ll keep loving you.
And we’ll keep counting the minutes — until forever meets us again. 🕊️💛